motivation

so, it's been over a week since I've posted - and there are several different reasons for why - but ultimately my problem this week has been motivation. 
we all struggle with it - even if it doesn't seem like it.
the snow days and illnesses don't help at all.  I'm now sick for the 3rd time in a month - or perhaps I've just been sick all month long, and it never really went away - but having all-over body aches and a fever makes it hard to workout AND hard to stay on the diet.  My kids have had 3 snow days and an early dismissal in less than a week.  And after 1 month of being back on the "diet" - I've lost no weight!!
So, the last week for me has been about re-evaluating how I am going to approach this competition season.  I've done this before - twice (well, 6 shows - but 2 seasons).  I know that I've dieted hard and killed myself with cardio and gotten to where I need to be in 16 weeks.  But I also know that I need to be leaner and harder this time around.  Stepping onto the pro stage for the first time, I want it to show that I made change to my physique.
So, I am starting a new approach.  One that makes sense to the science geek that lives in my head. 
If you see me over the next few weeks, I will be cranky - I am on 1200 calories a day for the next 3 weeks.  The good news is - I only have to lift 3 times per week - NO CARDIO!!!  Yay!!
But, this is when my 2 passions interfere with each other...I LOVE the classes that I teach.  but technically, there are times during my training when I shouldn't be doing them- and this is one of those times.  So food needs to be manipulated carefully on days that I teach so that I don't hinder my own progress.  Just enough added calories to aid recovery from the extra activity - but not enough calories to slow down fat loss.

does it sound obsessive?  it is.  it's not at all normal.  it's definitely not what "normal" people pursuing better fitness levels should be doing.  But, like any other sport - I need to eat and train for optimum performance!  So if you bump into me while I am battling temptation - do me a favor, and talk me down from the ledge!!

So, being stuck inside today because of another "inclement weather" school cancellation was a blessing in disguise - no bodystep today - which gives me another week to adjust to my drop in calories before I have to teach my hardest class.  Now, to try to get out to the doctor to get something to kick this cough...

and if you're stuck at home today - I want you to do 100 push ups, 100 squats and 100 sit ups.  I don't care if you do them 10 at a time or all at once...being stuck in the house is no reason to not move!!